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  1. How is everyone coping with the delicious treats that surround us during the Christmas Season? At my workplace many high-calorie treats are within my reach. A lot of my co-workers bring in baked assorted Christmas cookies, Christmas fudge with nuts, the largest box of chocolates I've ever seen in my life, peppermints, and the list goes on and on. Tomorrow morning our Supervisors are catering a staff breakfast for everyone, which will include many healthy and not so healthy items.

    I have made a mindful decision to continue to drink my shake in the morning, a hard-boiled egg for a snack, and a small salad for lunch. Even though the temptation is right under my nose, (literally right next to me), I have not touched a cookie, a candy, or the fudge! I'm very happy with my decision not to indulge!!!! Tomorrow morning at the staff breakfast, I will be too busy to step into the room filled with many different varieties of food, which is a blessing in disguise! I have a pack of gum inside my desk and chew it whenever I feel the need to chew. I always keep a pack of gum in my purse, and wherever I go I always have gum handy. It helps me get through the day! I also have been drinking a lot of water since there are many people around me with bronchitis, colds, and other contagious ailments that I don't want to become infected with as a result of not sleeping and eating poorly.


    It's not easy to be around all of these treats, and many people eat a lot during the Christmas celebrations, but I'm choosing to remain faithful since my addiction to food will always be with me throughout my life. I know that if I have a candy, I will not be able to control myself. It will signal me to have another and another and another until the box is empty! I know if I begin to eat a cookie, I will not be able to stop at one. I'll have to have at least five or six. Why torture myself and my body? I cannot afford to hurt myself anymore. I feel proud of my decision to turn away from the temptations, and as a result, I'll be better off in the long run. My self-awareness is very strong right now, and I'm grateful that it's keeping me honest.


    Stay true to your journey and you'll be happy you did!


    Linda Hegedus, :rolleyes:©

  2. Thanksgiving will soon be here. It's a day to be grateful and thankful for all of our blessings bestowed upon us. Many people in our lives are saddened when the holidays come since their loved ones may no longer be with them in celebration. There are many poor and homeless people who are alone and hungry. As most of us are blessed and remain very thankful and grateful, we can lend a helping hand to those who are in need of love, kindness, comfort, or a good home-cooked meal and a warm place to sit at the table.


    Let our hearts be open, and pray for those who require assistance at this time. Let our souls give unconditional love and support to others as we celebrate this day of harmony and togetherness with one another. On this special day we remember that we were given support, love, and caring when we needed it the most during our personal journey. As we sit with our family and friends, we enjoy and cherish the time spent with the people who mean the most to us. We cannot focus on all of the food that's prepared, but only eat enough to satisfy our hunger. There's many foods that we can enjoy that are healthy and nutritious. Turkey is high in protein and very filling. Sweet potatoes contain many nutrients and vitamins. Green beans, peas and carrots, or broccoli also are rich in calcium and rich in vitamins. How about dessert? Make or bring your dessert. Prepare a low-calorie gelatin dessert, which is good with low calorie cool whip on top. A fruit salad is also tasty with pineapple, strawberries, blueberries, and some mango to give it great color.


    It's a challenge to celebrate this day as it's known to be quite a feast. We should plan ahead on what we're going to eat; here are some suggestions. If you're at home, or bringing a dish, prepare an appetizer filled with raw carrots, celery, raw mushrooms, cauliflower, and peppers. For the dip you can bring three different types of hummus. There's a great roasted pepper flavor, or garlic flavor, or a spicy flavor for variety. We can enjoy the celebration and remain true to our journey. If you're a guest, request a smaller dinner plate to eat on so you don't pile on too much food. Also drink water instead of soda, wine, or any other beverage that will contain a lot of calories. Once we begin to feel full, stop! Continuing to eat may ruin your day and the feeling of being uncomfortable will remain with you for hours to come.


    May all of you have a happy, healthy, and safe Thanksgiving. Peace and Love to all.


    Linda Hegedus, ©
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  3. Placing the pieces of our own puzzle can be quite an adventure. Sometimes we place a piece that does not “ fit” into that space. When we turn this particular piece, in many different directions, to “fit” into this allotted space, it just doesn’t“ fit”. We may attempt to have this piece” fit” at least several times, but it will not go into the place we want it to” fit”. There are similarities to the shape and size we’ve chosen, but still it will not connect to the other pieces.

    Life seems to unfold that way as well. When we make a personal effort to break the barriers and fit ourselves into a place where we don’t belong, it can be a painful experience. Hasn’t our obesity taught us that when we didn’t fit into that place, but tried to remain there even though it was not a good “fit” for us?

    The health issues we’ve endured by our own hands and ways of thinking? We were forcing ourselves to be put into a place where we never belonged. When we found another place, a place of value, the remaining pieces began to “fit” into place, and with ease….there it was all the time, a place without self-resistance. The transition became smooth, and it felt right within our souls to feel “fit” and at home. An abundance of comfort came from within, and the truth emerged!

    When resistance repeats itself over and over again, then it’s time to get moving and take action! Perhaps the struggle is part of the process of self-realization. In order to move to the place of non-resistance, there’s no forcing, but finally falling to a soft place of love, honesty, and compassion. When there’s a sense of calm within us, the puzzle piece had found its way into the right direction from the inner-compass. Resistance has taught us pain, doubt, and hopelessness. When we’ve finally realized after many attempts, to placing a piece where it never belonged, we moved and had taken action to be where it will “fit” it feels right, it feels good, it feels positive.

    No pain, no resistance, just joy, comfort, love, hope, trust, faith, courage, finding, resolving, discovering, becoming, growing, living, acknowledging, accepting, teaching, reaching, encouraging, enlightening, inspiring, and it’s a perfect “fit”!

    Linda Hegedus, ©
  4. Fairfield County Bariatrics along with Norwalk Hospital and Lord and Taylor created a wonderful event! It was an evening of celebration for each and every one of us who walked the runway of victory and success! Check out this clip below! Yes we can do this!
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    The other day I attended a picnic, which had many different food options to choose from, and the majority of food choices were surprisingly healthy ones. More and more people, who are hosting parties, are offering healthier foods when entertaining since the majority of people are becoming more aware of the environment in which we live in. GMO foods have been exploited for the negative effects they have on our health; and many people are growing their own food as the summer season has arrived. People are becoming aware of which seeds to buy and re-producing their own produce by keeping the seeds from their own crops as opposed to buying seeds each season.


    Change is all around us with food, and how we’re viewing the value of its content for long-term wellness. Many people who’ve been afflicted with illness and disease have turned to modifying their diets to a non-hormonal, organic, and plant-based diet as opposed to consuming red meat, pork, or chicken which has been injected with hormones for larger growth and faster production. I see a slow, but steady change due to this new awareness. People are educating themselves with the insight to be healthier vital human beings and reaping the benefits of eating organic, non-hormonal lean protein, and plant-based foods.


    If we encourage others to learn about their food choices and how they can improve their well-being just by what they’re eating on a daily basis, we can change an entire generation, who’s been raised on foods that were quick and easy to make and eat. Change is on the horizon, and it’s moving in a positive direction. Weight loss can be achieved by making these small but impactful changes towards a healthier and productive lifestyle. As we also incorporate various exercise routines to our daily lives, it’s a winning combination! Interval training with strength training has given me endurance, flexibility, and a wider range of motion, and I find that if I challenge myself to go an extra mile, or a higher level of intensity, or push my body to the limit, it’s almost euphoric!


    I’m also learning breathing techniques, which keep my cortisol levels in balance, along with a good night’s sleep, and a better frame of mind and outlook on life and the people around me. The toxic habits I’ve once partaken in have changed dramatically. It didn’t happen overnight, but as I overcame one of my habits, I began to work on removing the next bad habit, and then the next until I became completely clean and free from any and all toxic negative addictions. I’m an all or nothing type of person, so I’m quite happy and proud of overcoming all of my bad habits and have replaced them with healthy, positive, productive, and spiritually evolving habits. I’m a lot stronger and stable more than I’ve ever known and never needed the coping mechanisms I thought I needed.


    All I need is me and that’s enough. If there are other like-minded people, I could certainly share the wealth with them as well. Be well my conscience friends, and remember change is not only good for the soul, but it’s essential!


    Linda Hegedus ©
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  6. My life has significantly changed for the better! I have reached my personal weight-loss goal! Each day as I interact with others, who are struggling with their weight as well, I can offer hope, encouragement, and inspiration so they can find a place to begin their personal weight-loss journey. When I lead by example on my food choices and vitamin intake, it can become contagious to those who need assistance in their daily food choices. I have become a mentor to them as I manage my stressors in a more effective and constructive manner, and not turn to food for the solution.

    I've experienced firsthand the impact I've made in other's lives when I share my experiences, and give them the necessary enthusiam to make wiser choices when it comes to their own food choices. Many people I encounter eat fast food and drink a lot of soda on a daily basis. These individuals never feel good physically, and have health issues as a result of their daily habits. They are on the path of destruction not only physically, but mentally as well. I remember never eating breakfast, lunch, or hydrating throughout the day, but coming home and consuming over 4000 calories until bedtime. This pattern became a destructive habit, which I couldn't turn around on my own. Now that I eat every two hours and hydrate all day long, other people around me are observing my food choices and also making wiser food choices as a result of my success.

    I keep a picture posted on my refrigerator of my former self to remind me of what I can easily become if I don't remain disciplined and committed to my new lifestyle. I offer support and guidance to others, who ask me what they can eat during the day in order to feel better and become healthier. There's so many people around me who make excuses and believe they are content with their food choices. As I see them decline in their health due to their addiction to sugar and high-fat diets, I see their moods swing from one extreme to the other. They are seeking a better way, but don't know where to begin.

    I speak to others often at weight-loss seminars about my trials and tribulations during the many years of my moridly obese existence, and how my life was in a downward spiral. Seeing is believing. When I stand before others and tell my stories of the struggles I've had physically and mentally with my weight, it often ignites a spark and gives others hope and enlightenment that they can begin to heal within and move into a better way of life for themselves. I'm on a mission to reach out and assist as many people as I possibly can to motivate and inspire them to believe there's light at the end of this tunnel. There are second chances, and they no longer have to feel stuck anymore.

    It's very rewarding to me to give of myself to others, who are seeking a healthier lifestyle. I was given the gift of weight loss, and I'm giving back my time and experiences so I can make a difference to those who need assistance and support. I have found my place in life and will remain there for years to come!

    Be Well!

    Linda Hegedus ©
  7. Exercise is a great healer to the body. It oxygenates your blood, while building muscle and burning unwanted fat at the same time. Each time I exercise, I feel stronger, more alive, focused at work, and relaxed before bedtime. When I was not exercising as much, my body became tense, my attitude became shorter with others, and I felt a lot more physical pain as a result.

    As many of us know, in the beginning of our weight-loss journey, we were not accustomed to exercising since that was one of the major factors that had led us where we were at, and that was being morbidly obese. Exercise was foreign to many of us and it was not going to be easy to add this new activity into our journey. We had to introduce or reintroduce this activity slowly into our lives. Eating healthy foods that are comprised of low calories, but physically beneficial to our well-beings takes a front seat first and foremost on this path, but when exercise is incorporated as well, the results become not only beneficial to our entire well-being, but also something wonderful begins to happen to us. Our bodies begin to transform and reshape into a firm, toned, and fit appearance, which we can take much pride with as we are able to endure longer workouts as a result of following through every day with an exercise routine.


    If you’ve worried about having loose skin, or you’re feeling tired, and not satisfied with your appearance after weight loss, I would highly recommend that immediately after you’re able to begin an exercise routine, begin slowly and begin to challenge yourself each week on increasing the intensity of your workouts. You will see that your skin will tone up nicely as well as the contours of your body will be in proportion with the rest of your physique. Beginnings are not always easy, but they are essential for long-term success on this journey. One day, one week, one month, and one year; it will make all of the difference in your new life ahead. Eat well, sleep well, and be well. I feel good most of the time and I attribute it to these factors. Organic clean eating, and one hour of exercise per day. I will rest when my body tells me to take it easy, but overall, I feel good, and when people ask me my age and I tell them, they’re surprised.

    Exercise is the key to slow the aging process down, and revitalize, refresh, and rejuvenate your entire being! Get up and get moving! You’ll begin to enjoy this activity and look forward to doing more as you progress!


    Linda Hegedus ©
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  8. As each day passed by, I realized that all I was doing was going to work, coming home to prepare dinner and cleaning up around the house. If I had any energy left, I would color and read health-related articles before bedtime. I felt that I’ve forgotten that there was more to life than just resigning to a mundane routine. The winter months in New England don’t always have wiggle room for enjoying the great outdoors and being physically active on the bike trails or taking a long walk as I have in the Spring, Summer, and Fall. It was not enough to walk the corridors of my workplace during my 30-minute lunch break. I needed more motivation and movement. There’s a quote that states “He who hesitates is lost” it was time to get moving again in a different direction for a different adventure and experience.


    Sometimes we keep thinking about what we want to do, but we never put it into action. The last time I felt like this was when I contemplated about having weight-loss surgery. Every morning as I ventured out to work, I was driving by the brand-new gym that had just opened. I received a free pass to try it out from a friend of mine, but didn’t follow through. At the same time there was a Yoga program offered to me free of charge that I could attend on a weekly basis. I thought to myself, I need to get out there and do this! I signed up for the weekly Yoga class and also used my free three day pass to the new gym.


    I was always intrigued with Yoga and now I had the chance to add value to my life by participating in this group class. I enjoyed the session and have attended each class ever since. I’ve also met some very nice people as a result of taking a step forward. At the same time I joined the gym for the winter months since I don’t have to commit to a contract, and I am able to enjoy the benefits of the facility on a month to month basis. I already utilized the racquetball courts, had a boxing session with a trainer, used all of the fitness equipment, and free weights as well. Afterwards I reward my body with a hot steamy jacuzzi, and a hot sauna then I top it off with a cleansing shower.


    I’ve been feeling so much more relaxed and noticed my overall appearance looks much more vibrant and alive! Some people asked me what I’m doing to look healthy and I indicated by practicing yoga, and working out every day, has helped me in many aspects of my life. I feel a good tired in the evening, and instead of worrying and feeling uptight after a long day at the office, I’m relieved and refreshed. Yoga allows me to focus on breathing and detoxifying my body and thoughts at the same time. It keeps me in the present instead of in the past or the future. I’m learning to focus on the now and on the breath.


    The gym has given me the opportunity to reach out to others who are also working on their weight. It’s a calling I’ve always wanted to do and that is to help others as I have been helped with this life long journey. It’s only been three weeks and already I have motivated and inspired a handful of people. Imagine how many I can reach out to in one year? I’m glad I’ve decided to change up my routine and get out and reach out. It’s my nature and my purpose. I was put on this Earth to make a difference and that’s exactly what I’m going to do! What do you want to pursue? What have you been putting off doing that you’re ready to do? Don’t wait too long, or you’ll miss out on all of the fun!


    Linda Hegedus ©

  9. I met with a friend of mine, who had weight-loss surgery eight years' ago, and had gained all of their weight back just to become larger than they've ever been before. I had advised my friend to find out about having a revised surgical procedure done. They had taken heed to my advice since they've seen how far I've come, and had another weight-loss procedure performed.

    Six months had gone by and they were doing great! They had lost 100 lbs. and went down quite a few sizes as well. I had mentioned to them how wonderful they looked, and a broad smile would come across their face filled with pride and joy. I was so happy for them for taking control of their weight and staying true to their journey. After their eighth month on the journey, a mutual friend came by to see me and told me that our friend was losing hope and had become discouraged. He had asked me to check up on our friend, for he feared our friend was beginning to gain weight once again.

    I thought to myself why???? They have come this far, why are they setting themselves up to fail again? Every chance I had a to interact with them, I would ask how are you feeling? What are you eating and drinking? In the beginning of their journey, they had been extremely strict to the point of starvation. They were eating only jello and tuna fish. My belief is that they went to the other extreme, and when their hunger began to creep up on them, so began the cycle of "insanity". The old patterns and attitudes were brought to the surface once again. I've tried to contact my friend, and reach out to them before it's too late. Once is a mistake, but twice is a habit.

    The lessons were not learned the first time, and unfortunately being repeated for a second time. They will not have another chance if they don't wake up. I'm very concerned for their health and well-being. They are too young to have a life filled with no hope, no future, no life. I realize that I cannot save them, they can only save themselves. I feel helpless to just sit back and watch this person destroy what they worked so hard to become up to this point.

    Perhaps they have reached a plateau and feel it's not working. I remember during the first quarter of my journey, the weight was coming off at a rapid rate. The joy and anticipation of standing on the scale and seeing the numbers keep moving downward, was absolutely a natural high to feel! Then about the same time at approximately eight months, the scale didn't budge....I was puzzled? Why haven't I've lost more weight? Was I taking in enough protein to meet my daily requirement? Hydrating...did I hydrate enough to flush the excess fluids out of my body? Did I need to rev up my exercise routine and make it more challenging?

    One week passed by and still the scale wouldn't budge. The second week passed by, and there still was no change on the scale. By the third week, the scale began to move once again, but slower than it had in the past. At least it was beginning to move in the downward direction again. I pushed myself harder with my workout routine, focused on my caloric and protein intake to the exact number, and hydrated more than I had been just to trick my body and get it functioning again as a fat-burning machine! If I had given up during that period, I would have never reached my goal, which was clear in sight. I made sure I would follow-through for once in my life to finish what I've started.

    The moral of this story is to NEVER GIVE UP! Yesterday is gone and we've learned from our mistakes, tomorrow gives us another chance to begin once again, and today we can reach our personal goal that we set out to do. I am going to contact my friend and share my experience with them as I just did with all of you.

    May your journey remain a successful path that gives you the best quality of life that you truly deserve!

    Linda Hegedus ©
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  10. How is everyone coping with the delicious treats that surround us during the Christmas Season? At my workplace many high-calorie treats are within my reach. A lot of my co-workers bring in baked assorted Christmas cookies, Christmas fudge with nuts, the largest box of chocolates I've ever seen in my life, peppermints, and the list goes on and on. Tomorrow morning our Supervisors are catering a staff breakfast for everyone, which will include many healthy and not so healthy items.

    I have made a mindful decision to continue to drink my shake in the morning, a hard-boiled egg for a snack, and a small salad for lunch. Even though the temptation is right under my nose, (literally right next to me), I have not touched a cookie, a candy, or the fudge! I'm very happy with my decision not to indulge!!!! Tomorrow morning at the staff breakfast, I will be too busy to step into the room filled with many different varieties of food, which is a blessing in disguise! I have a pack of gum inside my desk and chew it whenever I feel the need to chew. I always keep a pack of gum in my purse, and wherever I go I always have gum handy. It helps me get through the day! I also have been drinking a lot of water since there are many people around me with bronchitis, colds, and other contagious ailments that I don't want to become infected with as a result of not sleeping and eating poorly.

    It's not easy to be around all of these treats, and many people eat a lot during the Christmas celebrations, but I'm choosing to remain faithful since my addiction to food will always be with me throughout my life. I know that if I have a candy, I will not be able to control myself. It will signal me to have another and another and another until the box is empty! I know if I begin to eat a cookie, I will not be able to stop at one. I'll have to have at least five or six. Why torture myself and my body? I cannot afford to hurt myself anymore. I feel proud of my decision to turn away from the temptations, and as a result, I'll be better off in the long run. My self-awareness is very strong right now, and I'm grateful that it's keeping me honest.

    Stay true to your journey and you'll be happy you did!

    Linda Hegedus, :rolleyes:©
  11. As Esther Phillips sang, “What a Difference a Day Makes” 24 little hours ….Yes one day can make all of the difference! Did you ever eat a food item that contained too much sugar, and since you’re not used to consuming a larger than normal amount, you ended up craving more sugar? It’s a vicious cycle of wanting, needing, and feeding that old addiction to what we used to crave the most. What once satisfied our inner-being, or so we thought. It was as if I was taking a drug that made me feel comfortably numb.

    Comfortably numb on food, that is…. The high didn’t last long, and like any addict, all I wanted to do was sleep it off. It felt like I was feeling a buzz on sugar. It began with the first piece of candy, which led to another piece, and yet another piece of delicious candy. I felt the old me coming out for a while, and in the moment of this feeling, I was aware that my old behavior was beginning to emerge. If just for that moment…. I felt free and naughty at the same time. I knew what the consequences were going to be if I continued, but it didn’t stop me from doing this to myself. I justified this behavior as I was good for so long, and always stayed true to my routine, but just having that sugar led to becoming out of control until I felt like vomiting. I was intoxicated with sugar. My pants began to tighten up, and my feet and hands began to swell. I was so doped up on sugar that when I walked upstairs to my bedroom, my head was pulsating very hard as if I was going to have a stroke.

    I know what I’ve done and was afraid, but as a drug addict or an alcoholic reacts to their demise, they sleep it off. That’s exactly what I did was sleep it off. When I woke up the next morning, I felt a little off, disconnected, and physically very tired. It was as if I had a hangover from the indulgence of partaking to the sweets and treats. I realized that old part of me which I thought was buried for good, came out and will always be silently sitting within me. Just like a drug addict that takes that drug for the first time after being clean for so long, they want more and more, or the alcoholic who’s been sober for years and slips into having a drink, and realizes they can’t stop. I felt that way as well with eating high carbs, which led me to wanting sugar!!!!

    After taking a long and hard look at myself, and what this habit would do to me long-term, I said to myself I cannot do this anymore. I was mortified that I explored that area, and thought that aspect of my being was long gone, but when it resurfaced, I knew it would always be a part of who I was but not who I am now. It’s almost 5.5 years out from my RNY Gastric Bypass surgery, and the dumping syndrome was apparent, but it seems as the years pass by, it’s not nearly as prominent. This week I’ve been back to my healthy lifestyle, which includes my supplements, and eating an all organic plant-based diet, in addition to drinking 74 ounces of water; and walking for ½ hour of five laps around the track, which is one mile and a quarter. Since this weekend was mild outdoors, I rode my bike on the trails as well.

    “What a Difference a Day Makes”, 24 little hours came to my mind when I seen my pants are already loose, and the excess fluids were flushed out from my inflamed body caused by the extreme sugar intake. My mind is clear once again, and I felt energized! My hands and feet are not swollen, and my head is not pounding. Thankfully I got back on track immediately and realized in one day you can turn it all around for the better!

    Linda Hegedus, 2016
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  12. I visit the Farmer's Market every Monday in my town, and I was asked why I choose to shop there every week.
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  13. Even though I was obese for many years, I have to disagree with people who say that obese people are very unhappy, when in reality like Jolly old St. Nick is Jolly for a reason. I was a jolly woman because I was free to eat anything and everything I chose to eat at any time of the day or night. That was complete and total freedom. Who wouldn’t be happy? I was at a point of no return since I felt my weight was so out of control that I was never going to get back to the person I once was many years ago. Why not continue on that path? As the years passed and my weight began to increase each year, there came a point where my body no longer could sustain that amount of weight I was carrying especially on my knees.

    I had ran out of time when I enjoyed eating everything I liked, and when my body began to send me messages loud and clear that it was time to change or else; I knew I had to do something and fast, or I was not going to be around to live out my life. Sooner or later the lifestyle you’re living as an obese person with your poor eating habits, lack of exercise, and overall lack of self-care, catches up to you, maybe not today, maybe not tomorrow, but one day, when you’re ready for another day of indulgence, your body surrenders and sends you a signal, whether it’s an insulin shot once a day due to becoming diabetic, or a high blood pressure reading, or a sleep apnea diagnosis, or high cholesterol issues, or having an osteoarthritis condition. How about developing skin tags, rashes, painful boils? Your body is telling you it needs to be taken care of and if you don’t pay attention, you could end up with dire consequences.

    My body was beginning to break down and it seemed to happen all at once. The pain at times was unbearable that I wanted to amputate my legs so the pain would go away. I dreaded having to get out of bed in the morning since it was an effort to stand up and walk across the hall to the bathroom. I had trouble lifting my leg to step into the tub to take a shower. I had to wake up 15 minutes earlier to ensure I would have enough time to put on my socks and shoes and dress myself as well. It was hard to reach my feet to put on my socks and shoes. My shoes were orthopedic and cost $300.00 a pair. They were not attractive to wear either since they were for much older people, who usually wore them later in life due to being disabled to some degree. Being obese was a chore, every movement, every day, every step, until one day I finally broke down and cried. I said how and why did I allow myself to become this person I thought I would never become?

    What happened? Why did I hurt myself to a point of no return? Not only did I feel the pain physically, but I felt worse emotionally as well. I was not very jolly anymore. The pain had taken over my entire being. I needed to embrace this place in time and plan to take the necessary steps to make the changes I needed in order to get back in the game of life once again. I had decided to have weight-loss surgery, which was my last resort, after many numerous attempts of dieting, exercising, gaining back the weight, reaching newer and greater heights, repeating old behaviors, etc. Surgery saved me this time and has kept me from reverting back to old habits. I eat slower, I chew more, I drink water quite frequently, and exercise has become incorporated into my life every single day. All of my health issues are gone, and I feel good. I’m not going to ever return to the obese person I once was because if I ever did, I wouldn’t make it out alive. I like my new life much better especially since there’s no more physical pain. I still have emotional challenges, but my physical pain is completely gone!

    I’m very grateful these weight-loss surgical procedures are available to the obese community. Sometimes we need help, and it’s there if you’ve made numerous attempts to lose weight only to fail over and over again perhaps you are ready for the biggest change of your life. I was and it’s all onward and upward! Never looking back!


    Linda Hegedus ©
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  14. I was fortunate enough to experience motherhood, but it does come with a price attached, and that is responsibility. This new way of life does not have an owner’s manual when our new bundle of joy arrives, and is looking up at us for guidance and direction. We embrace this new person that we’ve created and take special care of them with love, affection, and nurturing. As the years go by, we watch our child grow and become their own person, and if we’re blessed to have a child who has thrived and flourished in this challenging and ever-changing world, we realize that we’ve done our job and our mission is complete….or is it ever complete?

    I’ve struggled all of my life with my weight, which was passed down to me by my father, who struggled with his weight, which was carried down by his mother, who struggled with her weight, which was carried down by her mother. The cycle hasn’t stopped with me, but was passed down to my child, who not only has my genetics of weight issues, but also could have the weight gene passed on by her paternal side as well. She began her life as a small slender child, who was spoiled by both sides of her family not only with toys, clothes, and fun places to explore, but also sweets, and many kinds of treats like cookies, candies, cakes, fast foods, and the list goes on and on.


    My child grew up in a two parent full-time working household, which did not offer the quality time I wanted to provide. It hindered me to get her involved in many extra-curricular activities. We had enrolled her in martial arts. Halfway through the program she didn’t want to continue, but we insisted she completed what she started until she obtained her black belt, which she accomplished when she was in the sixth grade. Afterwards we had signed her up for girls’ softball, and she excelled at that sport as well, but then her interests changed and she became interested in the arts where she loved to sing and play in the band and be part of the school productions. She excelled as a student in school, but growing up in the video game and computer age, she became less interested in exercising and more interested in eating and laying around the house, watching movies, and reading books, which is great, the reading books aspect, but not engaging in walking, riding a bike, or getting any physical activity worked into her life at all.

    After High School, I noticed her weight beginning to slowly creep upwards, and I couldn’t say anything since she would get offended and defensive about the subject. I knew better than anyone the painful experiences felt by being overweight and out of shape. I thought after having my weight-loss surgery, and finally losing a tremendous amount of weight, it would have inspired her to work on her weight, but instead I noticed she began to put on the weight.

    Once she attended her first year of college, her weight was escalating to a point where her grandparents, aunts and uncles were very concerned and asking why is she so large? I would tell them I tried to address this with her, but it was a sensitive subject and I had to be careful how I spoke to her about her weight. I also told them she said that most college students gain an average of 15-20 pounds in their first year. She gained more than 20 pounds, and would be considered obese at this point. My heart is breaking to see her this way. In four years’ time, she’s well into the 200-pound range, and I want to address this matter with her, but she will not talk about what everyone is seeing and saying to me. No one will dare say anything to her about this, so what do you do? What can I say?

    I cannot take my eyes off of her and I had that talk again, as gently as I knew how to get my point across from a place of love and concern. It was not well-received, but I did notice a change in her eating habits for the better. More water, and more protein. It’s a start, but it’s going to have to be her decision in the end. We all have to face ourselves and make up our own minds. I will not give up trying to help this beautiful soul. I care about her health and welfare. I can relate to how she feels since I had issues with my weight and continue to stay on top of it since it can easily get out of control. I know that at my daughter’s age, I was never that size, and worked out and watched what I ate. It was a different time and we didn’t have the luxuries of computers, phones, and video games handy. My parents used to get on me about my weight, but the difference was that my mother was always small and petite. My father understood my struggle since he struggled with weight too. I now understand how my mom felt to see her daughter spiraling out of control. I pray she’ll wake up before it’s too late.

    Did I strain my relationship with her all of these years? Is this her only control in life is to remain or get larger in order to be in control when all else is not in her control? I talked to the family and said perhaps they can talk to her about this, but no one wants to approach her on the subject. I feel I failed her in some way and don’t know how to get her back on track. She tried a liquid fast for a week and I tried to help her with it but it was just that, a fad that faded away. I’ve tried these fad diets myself over the years and I guess there may come a time when she’ll realize that she does not want this anymore, and she’s ready to change her ways and embrace a healthier way of life. We want what’s best for our children, whether they realize it or not, but I can only hope that by living with me and being surrounded by the healthy foods in our home that she may want to indulge in these alternatives and actually like this way of life.


    Linda Hegedus, 2016 ©
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  15. I’ve learned to take baby steps and not to be disappointed if my progress is slow.

    I’ve learned that my relationships have changed with those who are the closest to me in my life.

    I’ve learned that I can accomplish goals and pursue my dreams.

    I’ve learned that my life is what I make of it, and not what others think my life should be.

    I’ve learned that not everyone is going to support my success, and I will have to be my own best friend.

    I’ve learned that my body will let me know when I’ve had enough to eat or drink.

    I’ve learned that being thin doesn’t eliminate life’s challenges I must face.

    I’ve learned that comfort foods no longer serve me well, but almost destroyed my life.

    I’ve learned to focus on the positive in my life and try to eliminate any negative feelings I may have inside.

    I’ve learned that opportunities are plentiful with my new appearance and attitude. Doors that were once closed have cracked opened for me.

    I’ve learned to respect my body and take better care of myself.

    I’ve learned that this journey is a life-long journey.

    I’ve learned to trust myself and my food choices.

    I’ve learned to say no to trigger foods that others want me in indulge in.

    I’ve learned that I have to be forgiving and patient with myself.

    I’ve learned to be grateful for the second chance I was given to change my life.

    I’ve learned that I don’t need approval from anyone but myself.

    I’ve learned I can do so much more physically with the excessive amount of weight I’ve lost.

    I’ve learned that life is precious.

    I’ve learned to be held accountable for my decisions regarding food.

    I’ve learned to be kinder to myself and not beat myself up if I make the wrong food choice that day.

    I’ve learned to express my feelings openly.

    I’ve learned that fear held me back, and there’s nothing to fear.

    I’ve learned that meditation relaxes the mind, body, and spirit.

    I’ve learned that I’m a sexual being.

    I’ve learned that I made this change for a healthier and happier existence.

    I’ve learned that anger weakens my body.

    I’ve learned that depression is temporary.

    I’ve learned that food is vital for survival, but not an all-consuming factor in my life.

    I’ve learned to be tolerant of ignorant people, who don’t understand me.

    I’ve learned to give more of myself to others.

    I’ve learned to create healthy boundaries for myself.

    I’ve learned to adapt to my new lifestyle and accept this as a life-long commitment.

    I’ve learned that there’s more to life than existing, but living your life is key.

    I’ve learned I’m a much more approachable person now than I was before.

    I’ve learned to feel vulnerable and not fear the outcome.

    I’ve learned to feel again, and not suppress my feelings.

    I’ve learned to walk the walk and talk the talk.

    I’ve learned to seize the day for tomorrow may never come.

    I’ve learned to cherish people in my life, who’ve been loving, caring, and kind to me.

    I’ve learned to be compassionate with others fighting their own personal battles.

    I’ve learned that I will continue to learn something new every day as my awareness has become keen with time.


    Linda Hegedus, ©