Hey I'm Cary, I just had my surgery. First off pray and ask GOD for help and guidance. Next, find a hobby or skill you like or used to do. Take your mind off troubling thoughts. Travel to places you used to go or think about. I had my surgery due to degenerative arthritis in my left hip. I to get it fixed ASAP. You like music. Write a song, or paint a picture you feel from a song. You are not getting younger. This is all about you. Never forget the Bible.