Reading your post made me smile for several reasons!!
First off, congrats on being and staying 42 lbs down! That is NOT easy. Second, I relate to your journey so much!
This is also my second time through this process. I convinced myself last time that I would be able to do low-carb/keto and drop the pounds that I needed. After having some success and losing 30 pounds over a few months I dropped out, only to gain it all back plus a few more unhealthy habits.
We also have the same Dr!! I met with Dr. Leger in Jan (25th) and left there feeling so defeated. I was still gaining and felt hopeless. I was struggling makeing the changes I needed while teleworking and on an emotional rollercoaster this last year (pandemic, social isolation, and the passing of my father). He basically told me if I couldn’t lose weight he wouldn't do surgery. Since then I have lost 25 lbs and hope to be down 40 by surgery!
While my preop appointment was tough, it has really made me take a look at my emotions around eating.
Seriously so proud of you and KEEP IT UP!!!!!!