Hi Rhonda.....This here is 1stepatatime....I can read that you seem to have things under control. I have my surgery January 8th, 2013. I, too, am having mixed emotions, but trying hard to keep my mind busy with the Christmas rush. I wish you good tidings when it comes to your surgery and please keep us posted to your recovery. It is hard to imagine how we are going to feel afterwards, but in the long run....WLS is a great surgical tool for people who have had weight problem journeys that ended up right back where they started from. I know that this is a good decision for me and I am willing to work hard, which we all will, to make this a lifestyle plan. Geez.....I better.....I just turned 60....I am differently at a crossroad!!! LOL Please take care my friend....Sending Cyber Hugs!!!