Hello,
Wow, it is finally here! I can say I'm a mixture and a flood of emotions. My family is so supportive.....but why do I still feel so anxious and nervous (is that pretty normal)?
And, it is strange to admit....but the thoughts of "what comes after" have been rolling through my head. I guess to explain, I mean....I have been overweight my whole life and my weight has fluctuated throughout. I have dealt with the ridicule, discrimination, prejudice, mistreatment, name calling, and everything that comes with my "morbid" obesity ( I know how to handle that). But, I guess I'm leary about what comes next after surgery and weightloss? How do you get used to compliments instead of berating, whispers vs. cat calls (like my mom got after her surgery), how do you handle people finally noticing you and not get raging mad because you have been there the whole time, just people never seen you past your weight? Or, am I just crazy for feeling this way?
Today is my all clear-liquid regimen and then tomorrow is the big day. I guess I am just ready to start this new chapter. My sister had surgery in September, she is going with me since my mom can't. But, she told me about her drainage tubes being pulled out.....is it really that bad? I am a pain whimp, lol.
Spongebob put it best......"I'M READY!"
Wow, it is finally here! I can say I'm a mixture and a flood of emotions. My family is so supportive.....but why do I still feel so anxious and nervous (is that pretty normal)?
And, it is strange to admit....but the thoughts of "what comes after" have been rolling through my head. I guess to explain, I mean....I have been overweight my whole life and my weight has fluctuated throughout. I have dealt with the ridicule, discrimination, prejudice, mistreatment, name calling, and everything that comes with my "morbid" obesity ( I know how to handle that). But, I guess I'm leary about what comes next after surgery and weightloss? How do you get used to compliments instead of berating, whispers vs. cat calls (like my mom got after her surgery), how do you handle people finally noticing you and not get raging mad because you have been there the whole time, just people never seen you past your weight? Or, am I just crazy for feeling this way?
Today is my all clear-liquid regimen and then tomorrow is the big day. I guess I am just ready to start this new chapter. My sister had surgery in September, she is going with me since my mom can't. But, she told me about her drainage tubes being pulled out.....is it really that bad? I am a pain whimp, lol.
Spongebob put it best......"I'M READY!"
