WWWindy : Your reaching out to me changed my mind about if I would be able to help anyone in this forum. I'am still unsure, Thank you for your kindness, and other members who replied. I feel Iam in the wrong group since my path goes down a lonely path since the beginning .Looking back over the last 16yrs as I lay in bed every day, and simply brings up the inhumanity. Please understand this issue is my responsibility, I made the decision for barriactic surgery and I own it. The surgery can affect your future life in so many negative ways. I would venture to say, everyone wants the general outcome of this surgery to achieve what we lndividually invison. I had multicomobities after being rear ended in a horrific fwy, accident, my surgery was simply botched by the premier best surgeon in Orange County California . I too wanted this surgery for cosmetic reasons, a byproduct of the accident. I hope people contemplating surgery, spending more time researching the forums of what could go wrong,the daily responsibility of each day of any complicating issues which can arise. WWWendy, I've been to the best surgeons in calif., remarking any further surgery inside my body would easily loose me on the surgeons table. I've been on the last option available for about 18 months now,Its a intertheacal morpfine pump. I have a tank which is installed just over my right butt cheek. It's purpose to deliver morpfine to the spinal cord. You can understand more fully by netting it. I truely wish the best for all my brothers and sisters who choose surgery. Good bye, S