RecoveringSecretEater
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Hey all,
So it’s been a week since I decided to adopt the post-op way of eating and prepping while I wait for my surgery date due to COVID. It has been eye opening. Yes, I have the option to stop because I don’t have the surgical tool in place to assist with restrictions, but that defeats the purpose. I set a time starting at 5a for water reminder that goes off every 45 mins, but at 6:15a 9:15 12:15 3:15 and 6:15p (200 cal each meal because I’m told 1000 cal for now) a reminder for meals set for 15 mins allows for slow eating and syncs back with water timer 30 mins after (there’s one for 30 mins before to stop water to comply with drink recommendation). Last water reminder at 8:30p. Had spin classes (2), personal training (2), and dedicated walking mileage of 22 total miles at the end of this first week. I lost 11.6 lbs, got in 92 oz of water, 58 grams of protein. Notes: need to slow down eating. First day finished in 3 mins. Yesterday 11 mins. Occupy the mind. Every moment I felt like I was concentrating on when I could eat again. Day 4 I nearly ordered delivery because I felt I wanted to “feel normal”. But I can’t do that after surgery and the point of the whole process is to be healthy and establish I better relationship with nutrition. Also I need to eat protein first. I’m still a mixer.
I feel my biggest revelation was the concept of feeling “normal”. Kept thinking normal people don’t have to do this, normal people can do XYZ. That’s my trigger, not feeling like I’m like everyone else and that I don’t belong. Those thoughts kept driving the desire to keep eating. Intellectually I know there is no “normal”, “everyone”, and the like. It’s my depression trying to take the wheel again, and it’s sidekick anxiety can’t help itself, and loves chiming in. I’m jotting all this for therapy so that we can really break this cycle down. You would think the weight loss would be motivating, but I also fear success and know self sabotage will try to hitch a ride really soon. I just want to scream. Will take it easy though. Baby steps.
So it’s been a week since I decided to adopt the post-op way of eating and prepping while I wait for my surgery date due to COVID. It has been eye opening. Yes, I have the option to stop because I don’t have the surgical tool in place to assist with restrictions, but that defeats the purpose. I set a time starting at 5a for water reminder that goes off every 45 mins, but at 6:15a 9:15 12:15 3:15 and 6:15p (200 cal each meal because I’m told 1000 cal for now) a reminder for meals set for 15 mins allows for slow eating and syncs back with water timer 30 mins after (there’s one for 30 mins before to stop water to comply with drink recommendation). Last water reminder at 8:30p. Had spin classes (2), personal training (2), and dedicated walking mileage of 22 total miles at the end of this first week. I lost 11.6 lbs, got in 92 oz of water, 58 grams of protein. Notes: need to slow down eating. First day finished in 3 mins. Yesterday 11 mins. Occupy the mind. Every moment I felt like I was concentrating on when I could eat again. Day 4 I nearly ordered delivery because I felt I wanted to “feel normal”. But I can’t do that after surgery and the point of the whole process is to be healthy and establish I better relationship with nutrition. Also I need to eat protein first. I’m still a mixer.
I feel my biggest revelation was the concept of feeling “normal”. Kept thinking normal people don’t have to do this, normal people can do XYZ. That’s my trigger, not feeling like I’m like everyone else and that I don’t belong. Those thoughts kept driving the desire to keep eating. Intellectually I know there is no “normal”, “everyone”, and the like. It’s my depression trying to take the wheel again, and it’s sidekick anxiety can’t help itself, and loves chiming in. I’m jotting all this for therapy so that we can really break this cycle down. You would think the weight loss would be motivating, but I also fear success and know self sabotage will try to hitch a ride really soon. I just want to scream. Will take it easy though. Baby steps.