Welcome, Alli. Yep, you got the Head Hunger! I think we've all been where you are, but in my case, it went away long ago. I had a diagnosed eating disorder, starting more than 50 years ago, but I think RYGB took it away. There is a portion of your stomach that manufactures grehlin, the appetite stimulating hormone. For some people who have the big bypass, a lot of this is removed. I think that happened to me because I used to be tortured by it.
But this doesn't happen for everyone. I was so motivated to change my life, my bulimarexia no longer obsessed me. This was a classic case of redemption. I told myself, if I can get back my life, my health, I'll never throw it away again.
My surgery was 20 Aug 2007 and although I've had ups and downs, I've maintained a healthy body since then.
I hope you find you can live with that gremlin until it fades away, along with the excess weight. You're in charge now, not that voice.