Ophelie
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I started the process to get a gastric sleeve about two years ago but backed out for different reasons, mostly fear and addiction issues. I'm motivated to try again. I need to lose over a hundred pounds. I wasn't committed to the surgery before because I wasn't able to stick to quitting smoking or my other addictive vice: Mountain Dew. And I knew that they wouldn't allow me to go through the surgery and it wouldn't be successful even if they did without me getting help for my issues first. I quit smoking a month ago. So far, so good. I'm taking baby steps. My next goal is quitting Mountain Dew and all carbonated drinks. I have CPTSD and depression and an addictive brain. I wasn't being well cared for by my mental health providers. They were throwing psych meds at me for the wrong diagnoses and I just kept getting worse and worse until I wasn't functioning at all. My house was squalor, I am too fat to move without pain and my hygiene was not what it should be... and I was just basically waiting to die. I wouldn't even leave the house. Diet and exercise were out of the question at that point. December I stopped taking all psych meds and started feeling better for the first time in 15 years. I got into DBT groups and trauma talk therapy at the beginning of May of this year and everything is starting to improve... My youngest sonl who just turned 19, begged me to turn my health around because he was frightened that he'd be alone in the world as every other relative he has is dead, dying, or very ill and not taking care of themselves. I got help. I'm doing SMART Recovery now because 12 steps are too religious for me. It may take me a few more weeks before I attempt to quit soda. I quit smoking cold turkey and I'm still suffering from cravings. I won't attempt to quit soda until I'm confident I can resist smoking easily... It's just too hard to be withdrawing psychologically/physically from more than one substance at a time. I'm looking for some easy exercises that I can start to do daily because even just walking to the mailbox and back is too much for me. My lower back starts to scream and I can't breathe. I recently bought a yoga mat, waiting for it to show up. I'm hoping to find some youtube videos of easy yoga routines for beginners that won't be painful... I have to start slow. Any recommendations?