RecoveringSecretEater
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Hi! I’m new. I am 42, 305lbs, and 5’5”. I have sleep apnea, high blood pressure, and PseudoTumor Cerebri. I have been overweight/obese for 10 yrs, cycling between 250/270. I tried a medically supervised program 5 yrs ago at the same time I was diagnosed with PTC, because I was experiencing vision loss. In a month I lost 40lbs, but because my vision was getting worse, I was in and out of hospital, specialist appts., and eye surgery, I halted the weight loss program. A year later after two brain surgeries, I lost majority of my sight. I’m legally blind now. Then I gained the weight back after the combination of this and my job terminating me because I could not drive to see clients. Navigating life newly visually impaired, solo, living on my savings equaled more weight gain. But then I decided to go back into the weight management program two years later to try and control at least one area of my life. 50 lbs gone after a month, I began learning Braille, ways to navigate life with limited sight, and I started work in education and for years (20) of anti-depressants not working, I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder, placed on meds, and began to see life positively for the first time since I was a young adult. I started to think I was getting a handle on things and then the pandemic. 270 was my highest until I got up to 316. I allowed myself to spiral. I have a therapist and after months of working on new coping skills and talking to her about bariatric surgery, I made the appointment which will be in 3 weeks. I guess I’m nervous about not being approved. I know no one here can tell me yes or no, but I know you may understand the feeling. I check all the boxes, BMI >40 with co-morbidities. 5 years Documented obesity, and failed (maybe?) medical supervised weight program. It’s more the not knowing if you will have something done that you feel you really need to help turn your life around. I know WLS is not a quick fix, but I see it as an opportunity to do a hard reset on my life and develop a healthy relationship with food. I just wanted to share. I told my mom (she was silent but I’m an adult, just wanted her to know) and my sister has been very supportive and says she can understand why I would go this route. I am sharing here because you all may understand. Thank you so much for allowing me space.
