missyinacage
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I had my yearly visit today with my weight loss doctor. Here I am, feeling great about where I'm at, the road I've taken to get here and my daily routine that (I hope) will help me maintain this body for the rest of my life. But .. no.
My doctor started by telling me I had lost 17lbs since I was last in, which is a little slow for 5 months and most people continue losing for 2 years. She couldn't find my earliest weight in her computer so just went with 239 as my "heaviest" (it wasn't) and the closest she could find to my surgery date was my 4 week check up so she went with that as my "surgery date" weight. Then she asked what my goal weight is. She asked how many calories and carbs I am consuming daily and if I have eaten any sweets. When I answered that honestly, she went on a tangent about how I should have no sweets EVER, I am eating too many calories and insisted I make an appt with the nutritionist, because I need help immediately.
My day of surgery weight was 238, so there is a pretty big difference in the amount of weight I've lost both overall and since surgery compared to the numbers she is using. My original goal weight was 170. When I passed that, I made a new one of 160. I currently weight 156, which puts me in "normal" weight range according to their BMI/weight guidelines, (which she admitted when asked.)
She was SO great during my early weight loss journey, I am extremely disappointed that this is where we're at now. I feel like her behavior today was basically negligent. By being too lazy to actually find my correct numbers, she made false assumptions about how well I have or have not done. And of course, since she was so great during my early journey, and is an actual doctor, it's hard to not doubt myself. Maybe I am eating too much!? Maybe I should go for 140?! Had she said these things to me AND used the correct numbers to judge me, it would be much harder to convince myself that she is in the wrong here. And yet .. No, I do not eat a perfect, whole food only, plant based diet. No, I do not get an hour of aerobic exercise every day. Yes, I COULD be doing better. And it pisses me off that she's got me thinking that my great job isn't good enough.
My doctor started by telling me I had lost 17lbs since I was last in, which is a little slow for 5 months and most people continue losing for 2 years. She couldn't find my earliest weight in her computer so just went with 239 as my "heaviest" (it wasn't) and the closest she could find to my surgery date was my 4 week check up so she went with that as my "surgery date" weight. Then she asked what my goal weight is. She asked how many calories and carbs I am consuming daily and if I have eaten any sweets. When I answered that honestly, she went on a tangent about how I should have no sweets EVER, I am eating too many calories and insisted I make an appt with the nutritionist, because I need help immediately.
My day of surgery weight was 238, so there is a pretty big difference in the amount of weight I've lost both overall and since surgery compared to the numbers she is using. My original goal weight was 170. When I passed that, I made a new one of 160. I currently weight 156, which puts me in "normal" weight range according to their BMI/weight guidelines, (which she admitted when asked.)
She was SO great during my early weight loss journey, I am extremely disappointed that this is where we're at now. I feel like her behavior today was basically negligent. By being too lazy to actually find my correct numbers, she made false assumptions about how well I have or have not done. And of course, since she was so great during my early journey, and is an actual doctor, it's hard to not doubt myself. Maybe I am eating too much!? Maybe I should go for 140?! Had she said these things to me AND used the correct numbers to judge me, it would be much harder to convince myself that she is in the wrong here. And yet .. No, I do not eat a perfect, whole food only, plant based diet. No, I do not get an hour of aerobic exercise every day. Yes, I COULD be doing better. And it pisses me off that she's got me thinking that my great job isn't good enough.