futureskinnygrrl
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So my day started like I am sure most of ya'lls did. You went in to pre-op. You got all gussied up, taken back to the operating room. And the next moment you knew, you were awaking to strange noises, some discomfort, and this wonderful pain pump attached to you. The nurses are telling you things went well, you are of course in and out of lala land, and next you are whisked up to your permanent room for your stay away from home.
The problem is, by the end of my first day, my abdomen was bruising. Sure, yeah, I know that's normal. But then... it moved... lower...lower... and turned black. Every time you were out of bed to walk, you felt like death, your BP was dropping off the charts. And yet, no one seemed any the wiser.
Which leads me to....someone the next day finally realizing that something is terribly wrong. That the bruising is not where it should be going. Me crying, and anxiety filled. Doubting every choice I have ever made in life. Wondering if I would ever see my kids again.
Finally, my surgeon arrives, and says oh that? That's normal bruising. No, sorry, err, wrong! Sure, around the incisions I could understand. Then he tells me that it seems an artery must have been hit. That it will be fine. I will be bruised and uncomfy, and life will be grand. (Let me add that I saw my surgeon twice in a 5 day period, for a total length of 15 minutes, I am beyond upset)
No. It was not grand. It was horrifying. I had nurses looking at me like I was a monster. None of them seeing this before. Finally, the on call surgeon was brought in. He took one look at me and I could see the panic in his eyes. Tests were ordered. And 2 pints of blood were given to me since I was near the bottom of the barrel. During this whole time, my nurses were proud of me still walking, smiling ( or trying ) and making my life work.
I literally looked like I was 9 months or MORE pregnant. This was not normal as my surgeon deemed. When asked about artery? He just sorta mumbled that it happens in 1% of people. Okay fine... then why is this not in the warnings? Why was this not seen DURING the surgery? Why am I receiving a dang blood transfusion?
I have my follow up on Friday. I saw my PCP today, because on top of all this, I have thrush. And yes, the hits keep on coming. So please, tell me that someone else had this happen to them. Please tell me you overcame it. Because right now? I weigh more than when I went in. from the bottom of my incisions to my pubic area, I am so purple, I am black. Please tell me that I didn't make the biggest mistake of my life?
The problem is, by the end of my first day, my abdomen was bruising. Sure, yeah, I know that's normal. But then... it moved... lower...lower... and turned black. Every time you were out of bed to walk, you felt like death, your BP was dropping off the charts. And yet, no one seemed any the wiser.
Which leads me to....someone the next day finally realizing that something is terribly wrong. That the bruising is not where it should be going. Me crying, and anxiety filled. Doubting every choice I have ever made in life. Wondering if I would ever see my kids again.
Finally, my surgeon arrives, and says oh that? That's normal bruising. No, sorry, err, wrong! Sure, around the incisions I could understand. Then he tells me that it seems an artery must have been hit. That it will be fine. I will be bruised and uncomfy, and life will be grand. (Let me add that I saw my surgeon twice in a 5 day period, for a total length of 15 minutes, I am beyond upset)
No. It was not grand. It was horrifying. I had nurses looking at me like I was a monster. None of them seeing this before. Finally, the on call surgeon was brought in. He took one look at me and I could see the panic in his eyes. Tests were ordered. And 2 pints of blood were given to me since I was near the bottom of the barrel. During this whole time, my nurses were proud of me still walking, smiling ( or trying ) and making my life work.
I literally looked like I was 9 months or MORE pregnant. This was not normal as my surgeon deemed. When asked about artery? He just sorta mumbled that it happens in 1% of people. Okay fine... then why is this not in the warnings? Why was this not seen DURING the surgery? Why am I receiving a dang blood transfusion?
I have my follow up on Friday. I saw my PCP today, because on top of all this, I have thrush. And yes, the hits keep on coming. So please, tell me that someone else had this happen to them. Please tell me you overcame it. Because right now? I weigh more than when I went in. from the bottom of my incisions to my pubic area, I am so purple, I am black. Please tell me that I didn't make the biggest mistake of my life?