Hi Goppingen1,
I am 2 weeks tomorrow. I had complications during the 2nd week & was readmitted. I have cried every day since I got home last Thursday.
I see someone for counseling & spoke w/her to set up appts again because I'm really struggling.
Ironically she mentioned that the pain meds I was sent home with cause depression; not sure how long, etc.
I take meds for chronic low grade depression and general anxiety disorder.
Both times I was in the hospital they told me not to bring them that they had to be dispensed there but I never received them.
I hope my daily bouts of crying and oversensitivity and emotions get under conrol soon.
Today was a better day; I got my protein in (we don't do shakes in my program) 16 oz of milk & I still have some of th 64 oz of water to finish, also got a 45 min walk though it was 95 here today.
I think this is a huge lifestyle adjustment and when you get home and back to reality and start doing all these things you're told to accomplish it seems incredibly overwhelming.
There are days I feel like a complete loser, that I messed up my life & body so bad it caused me to have this surgery.
Now life will never be the same; seems so much harder.
Then again, I had major work done on a large hiatal hernia in addition to the roux-en-y plus some complications w/skin infections, 2 incisions & a blockage of the pouch.
I hope this is just a matter of giving ourselves time to heal and adjust in so many ways;
food prep
temporary lack of variety
small, angry pouch to work with that we really don't know too well
bathroom habits
taking meds is more challenging
living with others who have no restrictions
In addition to my emotional fluctuations I also find myself waking up a few hrs after I go to sleep soaking wet.
I don't know why this is happening & it's adding to the daily emotional flairs have to change the entire bed & open the top of the select comfort to make sure it dries out.
It seems really hard to live this life somedays & I wonder how in blazes I'm going to be able to handle all this + my job when I return to work.
So I think I do understand where you're coming from.
Perhaps we're in the process of grieving the past & how easy it was to stuff ourselves full of anything, anytime & have no set routine.
Best of luck to you & I do hope things start to look much better soon & become easier and more manageable.
Mary