Contrary Mary
Member
My 10th anniversary will be 2/24/12 and I've never regretted my decision to have my BPD/DS.
I went into this as a binge eater and, as with any eating disorder/addiction, I know that recovery is a lifelong process. I am still a binge eater, but, by the grace of my shrunken stomach and small intestine, I cannot do much about it. I spent much of my first 5 post-surgery years trying to sneak in binges here and there, but since there is no room for any extra volume, any surplus intake makes a hard, fast U-turn. I decided that throwing up is not acceptable -- I refuse to trade one eating disorder for another, and that it's far more comfortable just to do the right thing. I have had to deal with a lot of the emotions and memories that food used to shield me from, but that's a pretty good thing. I'm now 60 years old and I'm still having flashbacks from unhappier times. The thing is, I'm forced to deal with these things now, and every challenge I take on makes me a stronger, healthier person!
I have lost 300 pounds in these 10 years. I like to say that 2 of the 3 thin people inside me are now gone. I am physically and emotionally healthier than I have EVER been in my adult life, and that is a great accomplishment. I will always have my eating disorder, and the cravings that go with it, but the good life I have now makes it easy to say no when I want to crawl back into that dark place.
I am a work in progress, and I am proud to say that I gave myself the gift of a long life to continue that progress.
I LOVE ME!!!!!
I went into this as a binge eater and, as with any eating disorder/addiction, I know that recovery is a lifelong process. I am still a binge eater, but, by the grace of my shrunken stomach and small intestine, I cannot do much about it. I spent much of my first 5 post-surgery years trying to sneak in binges here and there, but since there is no room for any extra volume, any surplus intake makes a hard, fast U-turn. I decided that throwing up is not acceptable -- I refuse to trade one eating disorder for another, and that it's far more comfortable just to do the right thing. I have had to deal with a lot of the emotions and memories that food used to shield me from, but that's a pretty good thing. I'm now 60 years old and I'm still having flashbacks from unhappier times. The thing is, I'm forced to deal with these things now, and every challenge I take on makes me a stronger, healthier person!
I have lost 300 pounds in these 10 years. I like to say that 2 of the 3 thin people inside me are now gone. I am physically and emotionally healthier than I have EVER been in my adult life, and that is a great accomplishment. I will always have my eating disorder, and the cravings that go with it, but the good life I have now makes it easy to say no when I want to crawl back into that dark place.
I am a work in progress, and I am proud to say that I gave myself the gift of a long life to continue that progress.
I LOVE ME!!!!!