I'm going through what you are going through. I decided to go back to the beginning "without the surgery". You have not gained all you lost so find out what is the issue "psychological, emotional, lack of control" and attack it. See a therapist, dietitian, your primary md, and I know, the dreaded surgeon who will probably give you a hard time. As my daughter told me, you had a problem before the surgery, if you don't address it, the surgery won't help the problem. It has to be dealt with and I'm praying and trying my darnest not to let all this procedure be for not! Maybe we can encourage each other. Hang in there Lieutenanwife! Geri