Hi Asgcpa, Welcome. It sounds like you are having the RnY but not certain from your post. The first thing I noticed was the emotional rollercoaster I was on when I was just about where you are now and I came to realize this was really going to happen and what I am I doing to myself, then I talked myself down and realized I had tried everything mor than once and I would just gain more weight back
That went on until my surgery, well that and fear, anxiety, nervousness, excitement, joy, fear........ ya all that
I had a great support group, my three duaghters were wonderfull
After surgery when I woke up in my room I was not even hungry but they made me drink little cups of water, I meen little, and a pain pump that I pushed every so often before it hurt and after 24 hours they gave me a liquid pain med, I spent two days recovering and a lot of walking the halls and on day three I went home to finish recovering. I was still on my emotional rollercoaster, but instead of thinking what am I doing I went between "what did I do to myself?!?" and "I am so glad I did this so now I can get healthy and feel good!" That all lasted about a month. I was also very tired all the time taking several naps a day, I tolerated everything I ate that was in my prescribed meal plan and I never veared from what they laid out for me. The hardest thing is balancing the liquid and protien intake to make sure I got enough of both because they are the key to recovery and healing. That my first month or so recovery story I hope that helped you a bit.
Tom
